[he doesn't know what to say. he's still kind of reeling from the double-punch of never seeing sudoh again, and knowing that sudoh loves him--and knowing that he loves sudoh back. what can he say to this? "i'm sorry"? no, that sentiment is useless. his chest feels too tight, too hot, and he thinks it's just like with suoh. there is nothing i can do to help him.

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but then he thinks of what he said to sudoh earlier. cherish every moment. sudoh said he didn't regret it. it would be an insult to sudoh to regret even a second of their time together, even knowing the pain that will come to them later.]