The cruelest thing I can imagine is to lie to someone about your true feelings for them.
[his hands at his sides clench and unclench a few times]
If you will continue to hold everything inside and let it destroy you, then allow me to be your cautionary tale. I spent my entire life until last year believing in lies, believing the lies told to me, believing the lies I told myself, because I was afraid of what would happen if I faced the truth. If I faced the truth, it would only lead to being abandoned, but more than that it would lead to having to face the fact that I lived a life being used like a mere tool, being abused and neglected because it was the only life I knew. I chose to believe in lies, because facing anything else was simply too terrifying.
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[his hands at his sides clench and unclench a few times]
If you will continue to hold everything inside and let it destroy you, then allow me to be your cautionary tale. I spent my entire life until last year believing in lies, believing the lies told to me, believing the lies I told myself, because I was afraid of what would happen if I faced the truth. If I faced the truth, it would only lead to being abandoned, but more than that it would lead to having to face the fact that I lived a life being used like a mere tool, being abused and neglected because it was the only life I knew. I chose to believe in lies, because facing anything else was simply too terrifying.