[ he stops right there because he knows that he's just going to go on and on about a boy who's not even here, which is irrelevant to their current situation ]

Of course I can't go back to the past to fix everything, even if I was supposed to be the reliable organizer of our unit. I just knew that at the time, my dream of becoming just as important as the main characters of the story we had weaved together for the sake of revolution had come true. I was able to live out a story that's straight out of a shonen manga, and at that moment I felt more alive than anything I could've ever experienced in my miserable life. As if I could do anything.

And with that, I am happy.