Day 15

[pandatrash]

[There are really only two important things to note about Day 15:

One, your tablet informs you that there's a killing night tonight! Tonight we're back to normal; only one murder, please!

And two, there is shitty prepackaged deli sushi in kitchen. So uh, y'know. Enjoy that.]


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[suppressthedark]

[Listen, this was the best he could come up with on such short notice. You're also to blame here!]

...Even if it didn't work out, that's probably what you should be looking for. Not wanting to be just friends with someone, I mean.

[That is a pretty big step in feelings, anyway.]

Even if she rejected you, that doesn't mean someone else will in the future. Right?

[flamingprick]

Yeah, I guess not. But that makes it even harder to know, because most guys wouldn't want to be more than friends with another guy. Like, I've never thought that about a guy before. I didn't even think about liking a guy at all until Akira said all that stuff today.

[He doesn't actually like Akira in that way, but goddamn was that conversation confusing.]

[suppressthedark]

[....HOLD ON THERE]

What stuff did Akira say?

[Is his boyfriend hitting on other people?? Really???]

[flamingprick]

[He says this totally innocently.]

Well he saw the 'cool person' list I have, and he's at the top of it right now because you dropped a couple spaces. After I explained what it was, he said he thought I thought he was the most attractive guy in the school. I told him that I didn't look at guys in that way and I wouldn't know what to look for in 'attractive guys', so he took some paper and made a list real quick, I guess to show me that it can be done?

I was on it and I told him that's stupid because, well.

[He just. Gestures to himself, like it should be obvious why he's not really physically attractive.]

Then he said I'm cute. Which is WRONG, by the way. Who calls another guy cute like that?!

[He. He might still be a little embarrassed over that.]

But yeah the fact that he could do that so easily made me wonder if I should be looking at guys too or not.

[suppressthedark]

[Rin might notice that Ichigo actually...deflates a little when Rin talks about Akira calling him cute, because -

Well, 'cute' is what Akira calls him a lot, and it made him feel...special? Like it was something just the two of them shared. But hearing that Akira also called Rin cute makes something inside of him twist a little, and he just...wonders why he was dumb enough to think Akira would save a word just for him.

But he does his best not to show it, going back to all business quickly.]

Akira's...he's like that. I think his sense of what's cute is broken, honestly.

[which would explain a lot, but -]

I mean...it's up to you. Like I said, I didn't really think about it until I came here - guess I didn't really think it was an option.

[JAPAN'S LBGT IS KINDA BAD, especially in 2002.]

[flamingprick]

[Yeah, it probably is broken. That makes more sense to Rin at least.

Also don't think he missed that look. He's just not sure how to bring it up, because he's sure it's about Ichigo and Akira and he's not sure how to even talk about that.]

I didn't really either. I just always took it for granted that I'd marry a girl someday. Or die before I got married, I guess.

[YEAH his life expectancy isn't that great.]

I guess it doesn't matter much anyway. I don't feel that way about anyone here, and it's probably better to not think about 'what comes after' until we're actually out of this place alive.

[He does manage a small laugh as he thinks of something, though.]

I'll have to make it out alive for sure now though. It'd be uncool to die without kissing anyone ever.

[suppressthedark]

[Yeah, better to just pretend he didn't react at all right now. Besides, Ichigo would just wave it off and pretend nothing was wrong.

Still, Ichigo just smiles - and leans in a little conspiratorially.]

I can tell you from experience - you're not going to want to miss out on kissing someone.

[Then he leans back and takes another bite of his rice, because he's hungry and it's good.]

But there's nothing wrong in thinking about what you're going to do when you get out of here.

[When, not if. Because Ichigo's trying to be strong, and also not think about any more of his friends dying.]

1/2

[flamingprick]

[TMI dude. He doesn't want to know about you and Akira kissing, that's GROSS and private.]

It's hard to think past the next milestone, I'm too used to it now. I've been running on 'take it one thing at a time' for nearly a year now. And I really don't wanna think about those stupid exorcist exams-

2/2

[flamingprick]

[Wait.

WAIT!]

Holy shit. I'm gonna pass those exorcist exams.

['Ultimate Exorcist' indeed.]

I'm gonna pass the exams! I'll pass and then they can't execute me!